It's almost intoxicating and does not a healthy relationship make.
I spent a better part of last year trying to mend a brain that doesn't want to forget how he made me feel, outside of friends I can't seem to shake it. Ive heard that the best way to get over someone is to get under someone else,I've tried that . Later swallowing the guilt of thinking of said person during the act.
We only get so many great loves in this life time , I keep being afraid that if I have my head so deep in the sand I might not get another chance.
I'm physically out in the world but emotionally more guarded than the queen.I think it's just easier at this point to seat some in the friend area then try to make it work when they're feeling it and I don't. No one should have to prove anyrhthing to me let alone that this should work.
The most alarming behavior today is when I behave like the people that I let hurt me. The very behavior that made me feel obsolete.
Anyway I really should call this a bus blog seeing as the only time I seem to have are during these soggy 45 minute commutes.
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