I relistened to the podcast today to take a look at my final lesson of this challenge and I can honestly say that I do feel like this challenge has realigned me, rerooted me back to a human being who uses her phone as a tool.
However with that being said i'm a bit disappointed in the final task. It seemed cheap, it seemed as far as I was concerned the least creative idea and a cop out by the lady who invented the task. I do, however find my focus and my passion reignited. Everyday i'm either blogging, drawing or realigning myself with the tasks that need to occur the following day. I am happy and I feel like I set the doors in motion for what might open up to me.
I've said tiny prayers so that the universe can hear how grateful I am for giving me the opportunities that I am given and hopefully I can pass it along should someone need me.
As a fairly social person I find that I give so much of my time and energy to other people, places and things than myself. I know that there is still so much I need to work out but I feel like ebineezer scrooge. I still have time, I still have a solution to the clutter that became my life,Particularly in the creative realm. I can finally sit in the quiet silence and be able to be okay with it, I can draw in any space at this point now, focus and steady my hand.
That too me is how I love myself, that to me is a solace that I can create anywhere I go and a secret garden that lights up my path when I feel lost. Deep down inside i've ignored that feeling. I need to keep with it.. the biggest difference in this entire challenge?
Turning off all of my notifications.
Alot of this anxiety was self induced and I never knew.
To a new challenge begins tomorrow! Getting SERIOUS about my portfolio options, energy or not.
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