12/27

I got the notification for my internet that if i didn't pay it would be disconnected.
funny thing is that i feel more urgent to pay that then my student loans.

One part of me isn't sure about this unemployment business and the other part of me knows that I haven't been as productive as I should of been, I've since finished two games. I've drawn a bit and even opened up some maya models to tinker around with.

I keep getting the urge to blog and sometimes when I open it up what I want to say nothing really comes out. Nothing profound anyway but when you have a regular human being writing I guess you can't expect a whole lot.

Anyhow, it's 10:43 on a Sunday and i'm watching The Good Dinosaur. borrowing from the internet as you do. I got comfortable with the idea of this little guy keeping both of his parents and I suppose that was on me.

Man I don't know if i have had quite enough heart wrenching stories told today but good christ.
Its harder and harder to stomach the quiet in my house. I live alone in a 300 sq. ft apartment in belltown. The silence is almost deafening compared to the active squelching of the belltown party goers outside. That was me once but i've found with age, experience and a whole lot of clubbing my anxiety spiked and I wasn't too fond of being cold all the time. Shaved legs weren't worth it if i were being felt up by yet another creepy hispanic man who came to chin height.

I digress.

I keep my brown ass at home, indulging in pixar movies, way too much pie (fuck it we got one more holiday left. )  and the fierce clacking of keys that do little to starve the twitching attentive ear of my sleeping black cat.

I don't have a measure anymore of what is productive enough for a single day.
I suppose it was my fault for not giving goals to set but i've been fighting 3D again. that needs to be squashed, it was one of my greatest weaknesses but maybe watching some of these movies might inspire me that i earned that degree and i'm not a complete failure at it.